and then- and then you- and then you open- and then you open a- and then you open a location- and then you open a location like (insert OSM way here), and then- and then the- and then the pain- and then the pain the pain- and then you realize the brain surgery had no effect, the pain the pain omigodomigodomigodomigod the pain the pain, i’ve only been awake 48 hours without a break, my first caffeine in years, it’s only a map, why am i shaking so- maybe i am not seeing right, i close my eyes, eyes closed click … hello? is anyone out there??? is this qa purgatory? SNAP eyelids stronger than multiple layers gaffer tape carefully applied and welded to skin- mebbe if i stare at it, it will go away. show it who is the dominant canine in this doghouse.
eyes watering. NO BLINKING. the tears come. sobbing, heaving, weeping, wailing, moaning, gnashing of teeth. I AM AN EDITOR. I AM STRONG. I AM NOT A LOONY. i can fix this. i can. i can. can i? the uncertainty. is this art? is this sleep deprivation? this is a masterpiece. i am hearing visions and seeing voices. iinn sstteerreeoo. with reverberberberberb. all hail the mapper. learn to love the mapper. we are all the mapper. we are here to serve the map. no. i cannot. i close the tab and go somewhere else. i have failed. i am no longer a mapper. RIP.